Obviously I haven’t been on here to blog in a while. Incase you all haven’t figured out I kind of stopped staying a track and went back to my old ways. I lost 22lbs while I was on weight watchers. I managed to keep 20 of those pounds off, which that in itself is an accomplishment for me. Yet I don’t feel good about it. I was doing good and then I just gave up on myself. Why is it that when it comes to focusing on the things I want or need to do I can’t do it? Yet when it is for my children or my husband I seem to follow through without hesitation? What is so hard about just following through on something for myself?
I need to prioritize my life. To me, my kids will always come first, but I need to throw in some time for me. If I am able to make a schedule for myself around the kids I believe I can sneak some me time in there. For starters, I can stop the sleeping until the kids wake up part. I should wake up at 7:00 every morning (weekends I intend to sleep in a little). Then if the kids are still asleep I should work out, shower, and have breakfast. If The kids are already awake then I will have to move things around. I should also make my lunch the night before when I make my husbands. If I already have a lunch, then I won’t have to look for something to eat, and the choices will be better than something I would just grab out of the fridge.
What I need to do more than anything, is stop giving up. I need to stop feeling disappointed in myself. I have been overweight for far too long. I need to make these changes. Instead of berating myself for little mistakes or slip ups, I should acknowledge the things I am doing right, and just focus on not making the slip up again. I need to accept that it takes time to get to where you want to be. I want to be thin. And not just thin, healthy. After all, aren’t I worth it?
